I live with a woman who has no idea how to "contain" someone's emotion.  She has no clue how to validate - she always has to match or "one up" the pain or anger emitted around her. 

I'm not supposed to be so reactive when I'm hungry, angry, lonely or tired - not doing such a great job that right now.  This day has started off in a very crappy way and I hate it.

I hate that I want her to be something she can't -- someone who "knows" me, someone who does things with intentional purpose (not on a whim, or a last minute afterthought).  Someone who was just a little better at communicating.  Someone who can go about making traditions - who can be consistent and counted on.  Someone who wants to have close family and be family.

I hate Christmas.

I hate that my anger towards her makes me hate myself a little more too.