November 8, 2012
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Humble Thyself
Another rambling thoughts entry...
Today, while driving, my mind wandered (as it tends to do oftentimes)... I came to think of the story about Mary & Martha (the women who served a meal to Jesus). After the dinner, Mary sat and listened to Jesus, while Martha went about work and became upset with Mary for not helping her.
Perhaps it wouldn't be hermeneutically correct to fill in the blanks, with my own ideas about why one person did something... but oh well.. I did it anyhow.
I came to imagine that perhaps Mary was a woman who was consistently very hard-working and diligent... I then considered that, perhaps, Martha was more of a person who liked to put on airs for visitors (to show that she was not lazy and to publicly show she was dutiful)... and possibly angry that she was left with all the hard work for herself and angry that she she was "shown up" for not being as gracious to her guest by sitting to listen to him (so she chose to show that being the dutiful housekeeper was, of course, the proper choice, instead of humbling herself and altering her course of action.)
Okay, I know that I'm thinking like a 21st century woman - because back then, a woman wasn't supposed to be involved in the teaching of the word, etc... and was supposed to be the dutiful housekeeper... so I know that my thoughts were not really what was occurring... so, um... back to reality - and the real heart of the matter.
I don't know why my personal situation led me to that stray set of thoughts... but I know that it comes down pretty much to knowing I have an issue with humbleness & humility.
Most people who know me (in a general sense) would likely say that I am a fairly humble person. In my heart, in all honesty with myself, I know am not the type of humble I need to be though. I am realizing more and more that this is causing strife in my life (and has likely been a root cause in my past as well).
I could try to analyze why I have this problem... that would be wasting time and energy though, I suppose - time and energy that should be spent on rectifying the problem.
I guess there are example of people who became humble (if you're reading this, feel free to tell me who they are - especially if it includes an example of someone who didn't attain this quality instantaneously)...
I'm definitely struggling with feeling like I will ever become that type of humble person that I need/want to be...
Comments (5)
Do you mean there is a right humble person and a wrong humble person? And why are you a different kind of humble than you need to be?
@kissafrogfindaprince - no, don't mean that there is a right/wrong way to be humble... but I do believe there are different types of humbleness (meek versus submissive, perhaps?) I am more on the "meek" side (unless provoked by someone); I would like to be more submissive (when I say submissive, I mean in the sense of a "servant heart" too, btw)
"Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth."
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Just a thought.
Also, I don't really see you as meek, as defined by the internet. (humblypatientordocile,asunderprovocationfromothers; overlysubmissiveorcompliant;spiritless; tame.) Not saying you couldn't be some of those things... I just don't see you as tame or spiritless, or even very patient sometimes... I feel like the definition says that a meek person is a weak person... and I don't feel you are weak.
Anyways. You WANT to be more meek?
(just trying to understand
Whoa... that is supposed to read:
humbly patient or docile, as under provocation from others; overly submissive or compliant; spiritless; tame
Not sure why it crunched all those words together. Weird.
@kissafrogfindaprince - I want to be more submissive (giving into pride and to act against the "flesh" part of me that only wants to do what I want to do).
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